for the first time in probably ever I

feel so happy to be living this life

because I know just how much worse it could be

when I see people like you

and I don’t mean that in a mean way but

god yes I can be so mean

so I have to bite my cheek and

I guess also my tongue

and instead think about

how lucky I am to be living this life

and not yours

because if I wasn’t living this life

I may not be writing this at all

and I’d be crying just as much as you are.